Some weeks ago, I’ve made a post about the problems with my voice. Since a while, singing was getting harder for me. It happend so suddenly, I am not as flexible as before, I got problems on hitting notes that I hit before. An another problem is that I am not able to sing over 5 minutes, because after the 5 minutes everything is getting really hard. My throat is getting worse especially after sneezing, I even can’t talk really much. Otherwise I’m feeling the pain for ca. two days.

So there are just 2 weeks left for the appointment that I’ve made at the hospital. Well, today I was by an ear, nose and throat specialist, and it was found out that my voice box is open(Dysphonia). That seem to make the singing and speaking harder.

Im singing since I was a child, and I already often wrote that there were days, where I practiced from day or night to the next night. I can remember that I really had no clue that I there would be such a thing like Voice Damages. So I’ve sung and scream, I tried out so many things. My voice had to go trough so much, that I was and am afraid of having a vocal fold nodule.
Even singers who get trained professionally get this after a while. A bunch of singers, like Miley Cyrus, or Daesung, Senguri (from Big Bang), Tiffany(SNSD), Jung Yongwha (CNBLUE), Wheesung even Madonna and more. Most of these people got trained from early childhood days, and they started having problems at my age.

I don’t get trained, and am very relieved to say that it is actually not as bad as I’ve seen and heard in some videos. The Dysphonia was caused by using a wrong breathing technique, as much as I know: It seem to cause a vocal fold nodule by getting undiscovered.

Whatever, nobody knows… I didn’t cancel the schedule at the hospital, so I’m going to get some more detailed tests and hope that they’ll discover nothing new

I’ve been watching a lot Asian Dramas and Movies. One Drama end’s and an other one will be broadcasted instead. That’s also what happen on the Turkish TV Channels too, but I usually dont watch TV.

The First Drama I’ve seen was a few years ago. I found it on youtube and always wanted to watch more episodes and looked for them all over the internet but I didn’t found anything. At that time I also didn’t know much about Korean Dramas.
One Days I found an oppoturnity to watch Asian Movies. One of the first Movies I’ve seen was a Japanese one and then I found 200 pounds beauty. That was when my addiction really started xD.
I don’t have much luck with picking out movies, I wasn’t statisfied with most of them. For expample, many people like A Millinaires First Love, the titel Song Insa is amazing but the movie itself was just boring to me.

The Best Korean Drama I’ve seen is Bad Guy. Amazing Story, love the actors. Through this Drama I became closer with the music of Brown Eyes, because Yung Jeop is singing the Original Soundtrack, and I am addicted to this song since the Drama got Broadcasted. I even listened to it over thousand times, again and again, one time after another, but It never annoyed me. I love every Soundtrack of this Drama. Shim Gun Wook (Kim Nam Gil) plots revenge against the Haeshin Group, a large corporation to whom Hong Tae Sung (Kim Jae Wook) is the heir.

An another Drama, which I also really loved watching is Autumns Concerto. It’s an Taiwanese Drama, the first episode was hard to watch. And the Aunt of Mu Cheng Annoyed me the whole drama. But the Story was very touching, about a really cute couple, how they found themselves. Through Autmuns Concerto I found out about Vaness Wu, an singer of the Band F4. He has a blog which I read sometimes. I’m also following him on twitter, its quite interessting.

Guang Xi, a cocky law student, seems to lead the perfect life. He’s the sole successor to a huge and famous business and a talented ice hockey player. But in reality, his lonely life lacks joy, laughter and motivation. That is until he meets Liang Mu Cheng, the new bento seller at his school canteen. A harmless bet brings the two together and Guang Xi slowly changes as Mu Cheng teaches him how to give and love.

Iris speaks for itself. It’s a different drama, more western style. This one also had amazingly, really amazingly, good looking, beautiful and sexy actors.

Boys Over Flowers and You are Beautiful are very popular Dramas, anyone who knows Korean Dramas know this two Dramas. Beautiful Actors. I liked both at the beginning, but after a few episodes the storys became annoying, but I still watched both until the last episode. I think they are overrated.
The management company of the idol group A.N.JELL insisted on adding a new singer to the group as the lead vocal, Tae Kyung’s voice was hurting. However,the new member, Mi Nam, had to go to the States to repair a botched eye job just before signing the contract. His agent came up with the idea of having his twin sister, Mi Nyu,to stand in for him and pretend that she was her brother…

Other nice Drama’s are for expample Personal Taste, Coffee House, Oh My Lady,
Cinderella’s Sister, Down with Love, Prosecutor Princess, Stars Falling From The Sky. They are still nice but not as amazing as Bad Boy, Autumns Concerto and Iris and Queen Seon Deok.
Dramas I started watching and still doing are ; I am Legend, Born of a Rich Man, Pasta, Summer’s Desire,
Road No. 1 and the Variety Show “We got married”. Im looking forward for Don’t Hestitate, My Fair Lady, World Within, I Love You, Don’t Cry

Yesterday I got back from my trip to TURKEY!!! It was amazing, the bright weather, the people  and the atmosphere. The people were extremely nice, totally different from the Turks from Germany. The people’s faces where so bright, so SUNNY, NICE. They were so open hearted, everyone was always Greeting. Sometimes, I was afraid to be unpolite by saying anything hahah.

For several reasons I have to stop singing lessons for a month. I started taking singing lessons with many positive feelings and was very happy to be able to take this lessons. After a short time I noticed the postive results and started focusing on learning and improving as fast and much as posible. This throughts seemed to cause me too much pressure, I was thinking to much that was why I couldn’t relax and became fraught.

This mindset caused me  a voice damage. It’s not just hard to sing, it’s also hard to speak. I get weak when I start using my voice. For the next few weeks I’ll have to stop singing and let my voice recover. After this I’ll probably change my teacher and let everything happen more slowly.