I’m sorry, that I’m not posting regularly. It’s because I was busy the last few weeks. And I hate It when I do not have any pictures to embeed.

Some days ago I started with renovating my bedroom and at the time it looks like there would be no end. I absolutely want to get ready until Sunday, because my dad will come back then, I also want to show him the result. It’s a wonder that I just found the time to write a post, I’m sure to feel more relieved after posting this, because the whole last days I had a bad conscience for the reason I didn’t post anything for a long time.

You know, its not that easy for me, cause I’m not a native English speaker and I make every effort to speak correctly. I’m really mad about it! It means I’m really mad about being not better in English as I am. When I ask native speaker, what they think about my English, they always say “your English is fine” my accent also too.
But I think Its not that fine, like they tell me every time. I just have some problems with my vocabulary, sometimes they are some words I need and don’t know. Logically I have to look up for these. It happens not that often, but when It happens then Its not easy to get out of this fucking mess. I hate to look up for vocabulary’s, because it comes so across.

There was a time I had to search for every 10th word. And I’m happy stay over this time. Don’t think that I’m just unhappy about my English. On the other hand, I’m very proud to myself, because I cant feel the difference between before and now. I mean I’ve gotten better, sometimes I admire myself when I’m talking in English. When I know what to talk about, then I cant stop talking and sometimes I get out of breath, because I have so much thoughts in my mind, and I want them to get rid. I confess that I really love to talk to myself, I love it! Sometimes I record my talkin’ because than I can hear out the mistakes, or think about saying something in an another sentence structure. Nevertheless It’s not that easy for me to post regularly, not yet.